I am so effin' tired of living in this house! Tonight my mother crossed the line, and failed to take any responsibility for her actions. I was in between watching a movie and working on the computer, when my mom made a comment about not playing with my gum. Sometimes when I'm bored I flatten out the gum in my mouth and try to see how long I can make it, and It apparently was dangling out of my mouth. It was silly, sure. I'm not denying that. But it wasn't hurting anyone either. So when my mom made the comment, thinking she was joking, I twirled it around my finger. She got up from her seat, grabbed my wrists and pinned them on my chest. She told me not to do anything that could mess up her furniture, and since I had "taunted her" by twirling the gum around my finger she was entitled to get upset. At this point I'm a little pissed because she was pinning my wrists to my chest and it was hurting my collar bone. I happened to be wearing an old halloween shirt that had a skeleton on it and she moved my wrists to hit the spot on the skeleton where it's collar bone was saying "no, this is your collar bone!" So when she lets off, in defiance I place my gum (not smushed, not goopy, not sticky, 3 hour old gum) on the arm of the couch. She comes over and smacks me in the head twice!!!! I was dumbfounded! She's never in my life EVER hit me, and for her to do so over gum just blew my mind. She started to run her mouth about how if this were a court of law she would win her case, and that I (me!) was acting juvenile! I'm half suprised she didn't go spit a wad of gum on my bed in revenge! It was the dumbest thing I've ever seen her do. She told me I should act like an adult...who gives a shit if I play with my gum while I'm minding my own damn business and not hurting anyone or anything!!!??? Sure, its silly and I wouldn't do it while at work...but in the comfort of my own home? (Oh, excuse me...its the "ALMIGHTY MOMMY'S" home.) My bad. Way to make your kid feel unwelcome when they have no where else to go. But mind you this...the first chance I get to get out of here...I'M TAKING IT AND NEVER LOOKING BACK! Don't get me wrong; I love my mom. But I am tired of being nit-picked and nagged when I haven't done anything to warrant it. Not to mention I feel guilty pretty much 24-7 for putting her out, cuz i know she needs help financially...so I try to cut corners wherever possible. I know I still need help financially, and in that instance I am still like a kid, but in my professional and educational life...i am an adult. I'm well on my way to 24 years of age. I'm currently planning for my future family. Sorry for the financial burden mom, but I'm not 10 anymore...there are some things you're gonna have to realize that I'm going to do with or without your permission. Why? Because I'm a fucking adult and I don't need your permission. If you feel otherwise, dear mother, tell me...and before you know it, I'll be out of your fucking house. Quicker than lightening.

Fuck it...now Amz is in on me too. Fuck today. I just wanted one day to sit down and relax after busting my ass for the WORST semester of my life. So fuck school, fuck family, fuck life...and fuck you!

Here's the proof...

Exam #1: 75 (20%) = 15%
Exam #2: 80 (20%) = 16%
Exam #3: 77 (35%) = 26.95%
Project: 92 (10%) = 9.2%
Case #1: 92 (5%) = 4.6%
Case #2: 70 (5%) = 3.5%
Case #3: 91 (5%) = 4.55%
Total Grade: 79.8% = B

Woah...

Its some what of a ritual for me to break down my list of "things to do" during finals week. I've been doing it for as long as I can remember...it helps to have stuff to strike out! So here goes...

Reasons I Am Currently Hating Nursing School

1. Cumulative OB Final on Tuesday (Get kicked out of program if I fail)

2. Psych Mental Health Student Teaching Project due Wednesday

3. Nursing Assessment and Care Plan Redo due Wednesday

4. 2nd Mental Status Exam

5. 2nd Therapeutic Interview Analysis

6. Alcoholics Anonymous

7. Four Psych Case Studies due Friday AM

8. Three Two more trips to the medical center during traffic; there's ALWAYS traffic.

9. $40 $30 worth of parking and gas.

10. 3-5 page paper due Wednesday.

Okay, so that seems like enough, eh? Wish me luck...i don't plan on sleeping until Wednesday night! :D

I think that stereotype is pretty much blown outta the water these days. I know that before I leave I look up directions on mapquest or google maps. So many ppl have GPS systems; either built into their cars or purchases seperately. Also there are many cell phones that you can look up directions on as well. So, i think the days of stopping and asking for directions are lost...and that goes for either gender!

1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write the name of the person who fits.
3. Answer each question with only one name.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing this meme. If you want to do it, I'll send you them. But then you HAVE to do it, you cheater!

1. Krystle
2. Amz
3. Idk
4. Amz
5. Chloe
6. Jamie
7. Krystle
8. Idk
9. Amz
10. Jamie
11. Amz
12. Amz
13. Idk
14. Krystle
15. Me
16. Jamie
17. Amz
18. Amz
19. Jamie/Krystle
20. Jamie
21. Krystle
22. Me/Amz
23. Jamie
24. Jamie/Chloe
25. Amz
26. Idk
27. Jamie
28. Idk
29. Krystle/Amz
30. Amz/Jamie

4 things about me:

4 jobs I have had in my life:
1. TAKS tutor for K-5th graders
2. lifeguard
3. retail bitch
4. kiddie gymnastics teacher

4 movies I could watch over and over
1. billy madison
2. happy gilmore
3. Juno
4. better than chocolate

4 places I've lived:
1. Shenandoah
2. Spring
3. Huntsville
4. Grangerland

4 TV shows I watch:
1. house
2. pushing daisys
3. cold case
4. moonlight

4 places I've been:
1. Germany
2. Switzerland
3. Florida
4. Nevada

4 people who email me the most:
1. stupid profs from nursing school
2. woodforest bank
3. craigslist fools
4. HRC
(notice how there are no "real" people that email me)

4 of my favorite foods:
1. fetuccini alfredo
2. chicken parmesean
3. chicken anything
4. ice cream/shakes

4 places I'd rather be right now:
1. asleep
2. at krystle and lee's
3. canada
4. europe

4 Family and friends I think will respond:
1. Amz
2. Krystle (cuz she's already done it but i'm counting her anyway)
3. Myself
4. Noone

4 things I am looking forward to this year:
1. graduating in may
2. getting married in canada
3. amber graduating
4. moving out and never looking back

I fuckin' hate my little cunt of a sister.

So imma try to 'splain some feelings in writing so i don't fuck 'em when i say 'em.

Ahem...

Today was a great day. Sorry about the Victoria's Secret thing. I didn't like that you were so annoyed that I didn't like the smell of the body sprays you picked out. I thought you'd be happy that I was going to get you some spray, not get mad because I didn't like the smell. I can't help what I don't like and you know how smell's get to my head. If it were make up, clothes, shoes, stuff...that'd be different. But a lot of smells give me headaches or make my tummy feel bad. Dr.s have said not to enter places like Bath & Body Works or Yankee Candle. I wish you would have been positive about it. It bummed me out that you didn't see how willing I was to get you something nice. Sorry that you got upset.

Love,

Hevanator

Thanks to Mary, Mark, Krystle, Leson and Samantha for being kick ass people and caring about me and my flip flops. I've got love for you all!